Sunday, December 31, 2017
Happy New Year's Eve 2017
Today when I was getting ready to start my day I was frustrated, thinking about the many challenges I would face over the next couple of days and within the first months of 2018. Without getting into too much detail; let's just say that every single aspect of my life is changing. My relationship with family members, my relationship with myself, and living arrangements, and foremost my relationship with my higher power.
Needless to say, with all this change I have been 'scared to death' as the old adage goes. Fear associated with life changes is normal and expected, however how we choose to deal with fear is where the message I received this morning comes in.
Here is the message: My children who know me so very well, know that I do my best to choose the path of 'love and light'. Each gift I received this Christmas had a reminder of these values that I cling to.
Hillary who is still working her recovery and brings into my life immense feelings of pride over her choice every day to 'see the light', even in the dark which appears from time to time; gave me a Lush hand lotion called 'love and light' that has the most lovely scent and helps with the pain associated with the dryness I experience in my hands this time of year.
Back to this morning; my hands are dry and hurt, I look on my bureau and there is 'love and light' for me to sooth my pain.
Yes! Love & Light
This is what love and light means to me: fear, sadness, frustration, loneliness and pain all show up in our lives. Sometimes it seems like these feelings show up more than the feelings of peace, love, joy, and comfort. What I was reminded of this morning when I chose to gently rub love and light all over my hands is, it helped. Yes the dryness will come back but when it does, I will apply more love and light.
2018 will be here before you know it, please make the choice to choose to heal your wounds with love and light. Choosing to try to heal yourself with people, places and substances that ultimately cause more pain and suffering will bring exactly that, more suffering.
I am not a doctor, although I play one on t.v. (sorry couldn't resist) however, I will offer you this prescription for all the ailments in your life and the lives of those you love;
RX for 2018
Find love and light wherever you can.
It comes in many different forms
and there is no co-pay.
If you are having trouble finding it,
look to the people (and sometimes furry friends)
who seem to have an abundance and ask them to share.
Anyone who has love and light is always willing
to give some away and will usually share with you
where they found it.
Reapply as often as necessary
until peace and calm occur.
dosage: 24hours a day seven days a week
with unlimited refills!
Every time I reach out to the universe in prayer, knowing you are all on this journey with me, replenishes my supply of love and light, thank you for another year of sharing the blessing of community with me. I love you all and wish you
an abundance of love & light in the coming year and beyond.
In the name of all that is bright and shining
peace and love, k
Wednesday, December 27, 2017
When you walk into a room and it is dark, what do you do? I head for the switch, sometimes I know exactly where the switch is so it is easy to turn on the light. Other times, in unfamiliar places I have no idea where the switch is so I fumble around in the dark until I can find it. If I don't find it I leave because I will never find anything in the dark to guide my way.
Everyone has a switch that can be turned on and off.
It can be turned on or off by you,
or it can be turned on or off by someone else........
if and only if you give them access to your switch.
Ultimately even if someone sneaks in
and flips off your light,
you can and you should turn it right back on
because fumbling around in the dark
is no fun at all.
If you can't see where you are or where you are going
then you are more likely to become lost.
This Christmas my Pastor shared with me an image
and a verse he found on another Pastors social media
that resonates with me on
an intense level, here it is.
I have said it before and I will continue to say it
over and over and over again........
In all aspects of life;
The only cure for darkness is light!
Love and Light be with you always
Monday, December 18, 2017
I Love You,
You got this;
You got this;
Monday, December 4, 2017
I'd be a millionaire if I had a nickel for every time I heard someone say the words, 'addicts are selfish; they don't care about anyone but themselves'.
This is simply not true in most, if not all cases. In my relationships with people who suffer with this disease it is entirely the opposite.The addiction calls the shots because the addicts, themselves no longer are able to see themselves as valuable so they feel hopeless against the power necessary to change vs. the power of the addiction.
-Have you ever felt hopeless in a situation that seemed completely out of your control?
-Have you ever felt someone/something held all of your cards; spouse, boss, child, illness, etc.?
-Have you ever wanted to give up because no matter how hard you try, your goal always eludes you?
-Have you ever wanted something so deeply that you would do anything to have it, but you don't have the proper tools to get it?
-Have you ever felt like a dog chasing their tail, endlessly; over and over again?
If you answered yes to any or all of these questions then you have a pretty good idea of what those who suffer with addiction go through.
There may be, and probably has been times they try to blame anyone/anything for the reason they are where they are. Ultimately, it is easy to blame someone else because if you have to take on responsibility for your own sh*t, it only makes you feel worse about yourself; more than you already do. Playing the blame game is a defense that so many of us have used at times to hide our own feelings of inadequacy.
Now you throw in the clinically diagnosed, chemical addiction (and often mental illness) and you are 100% shoveling sand against the tide. Try as you might the waves keep crashing in and it can be nearly impossible to keep going.
Now I want you to throw in the fact that in most cases your 'loved ones' are pretty much abandoning you; either in reality or as you see it.
Now I want you to throw in when you are addicted to someone/something, that thing takes over your brain and tells you all of the things your subconscious has been telling you all along; 'you are worthless so why bother'.
Oh, and by the way, did I mention that you can and usually do become so physically and emotionally ill when you try to stop that I have heard from folks that they would simply rather die.
You tell me, where is the selfishness, where is the 'it's all about me'?
It is there because there is so much damage to your self worth that most things simply don't matter anymore.
I would like you to consider taking a moment to think about when you have felt the emotions associated with being lonely, in pain, scared, tired, worthless and what you have done to alleviate those discomforts......
Now take a moment and ask yourself if you always chose something healthy to combat those emotions..........
Lastly, take a moment and ask yourself what brought you out of those feelings......
I am going to guess that it was love & light, either from within or from someone who has shown them to you.
When I started SOS almost two years ago it was with the intention to honor Ben's memory by creating a worldwide chain of unconditional, kind, loving healing support by way of positive energy, in the form of multi-faith and nondenominational prayer being sent out to world to heal wounded souls.
Today I ask you to join me in continuing our outreach ministry by sharing these ideas with as many people as you can, if that is one person than I am thrilled that one more person can share in our love of all those affected by addiction.
Light is the only source that can
Let your light shine!
may you feel the presence of light
in your life so warmly
that it shines
brightly for all the world to see
photo by Peter Malek
(notice the burst of light)