I'll be okay when...

 The other day I realized I spend a lot of time saying

it'll all be okay when.........

This happens or that happens...

or this is finished or that is started...

Then I realize that every time 

this happens or that happens

I find some other event

to replace that one with to keep myself

from comfortably moving forward.

and then I become frustrated

with myself for not being okay

right now.

The expectations we place on ourselves

to 'get over it', whatever it is;

can be very damaging to our spirit.

I know this,

however, knowing and doing
something about it 

are not the same thing.

I shared this with my sister-in-law, Brit

 and she very gently smiled at me

and said it is okay and it'll take time
for it to be more than okay.

She is so very wise (and chill) and I love her ❤

There will always be something

or someone to worry about.

That is for certain, today is no exception.

Life is hard and to find joy and peace

can take a lot of effort.

Here is something else I am certain about.

The alternative is not an option.

I will take the loss, sadness, grief

and frustration every second of every day

if it means I get to spend most of the seconds

with those I love and who love me

and sometimes sharing my love with those

that have never felt that kind of love before.

At the end of the day in joy and in sadness

it is okay because tomorrow holds

a new opportunity, 

a new beginning and

if you choose

a sense of the adventure

that just could be the start of

something miraculous

and WAY better than okay.

.......and when in doubt a little 

puppy love goes a long way!

Loved you then, 

love you still,

always have and I always will

xox-k